I need to get away sometimes. I need the closeness of family and friends to ground me.
I need to back out on obligations. I need the feeling of success in a project.
I need to disappoint people. I crumble at the thought of disappointing someone.
I need to be a nobody. I need to be somebody.
There are times I run away inside myself and hope that nobody finds me. There are times I need someone to search me out and show me that I matter.
Sometimes I need to cry when I am expected to laugh. Sometimes I laugh when I want to cry.
Sometimes I want to push away when I am in an embrace. Sometimes I don't ever want to be let go of.
Sometimes I want to cover my ears when I am expected to listen. Sometimes I really need to hear what is said.
That's who I am.